[scp r2: diesifkilled]

[purrtagonist]

BOOP

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week 5, monday way too early in the morning

[resortghosts]

Akira
are you awake

[purrtagonist]

[it takes him a good half an hour to respond]








Yeah. I am.

[resortghosts]

Sorry I know it's early.
But I wanted to ask you something
I remembered

We were training together.
Do you remember anything like that?
Or was it another Akira

[purrtagonist]

[. . . that's what he thought]

Training to be. . . a Thaumiel, right? To take down world-ending SCPs?

[resortghosts]

yeah

[purrtagonist]

[hahahahahahahaha]

Yeah. That was me.

The living one, not. . . the dead one.

[resortghosts]

Oh
You remembered that mission too.

[purrtagonist]

Yeah. I did.

It was kind of. . . surreal.

[to see what isn't but kind of is your own body crumbled underneath a pile of rubble. and that isn't saying anything about Akechi's body]

[resortghosts]

[ahahahahaha]

Yeah. It was.
It's kind of making me wonder if it's worth it
I mean I want to protect people but I don't want to keep seeing people die
especially not my friends
or different versions of my friends I don't know
and I don't want to end up like Archer

[purrtagonist]

I want to protect people, too.

But there sure as shit has to be a better way to do it than through the Foundation.

I think part of protecting people is doing SOMETHING about this goddamn organization, don't you?

[resortghosts]

That's why I joined. To change things. So I could stop places like the camp.

But that's not what's happening is it
The Foundation is just like that guy, they don't care about people just results
I don't want to end up like that.
I thought because I changed I wouldn't become him but now I'm not sure anymore and I don't know what to do.

[purrtagonist]

As long as you feel this way, Shirou, you won't become like him.

As long as you know what it is you WANT to do and continue to chase those ideals? You'll always be yourself. Not him.

[resortghosts]

[There's no response for a while. Maybe there isn't even one coming?]

[purrtagonist]

[and when there is no response?]

Shirou?

[resortghosts]

Sorry.
I was just thinking. I'm not sure I know what it is I want to do anymore.
I used to think I knew what my ideals were but I failed to follow them. Or to be precise they weren't mine to begin with.
After the camp I thought it was fine if I believed in working together and helping each other but
that's still not enough is it
even if we all try our hardest we can't save everyone

[purrtagonist]

Hey. . . you know what I think?

I don't think it's too late to save everyone.

[resortghosts]

It was too late back in that town.

Even if we succeed here, it's going to keep happening.

[purrtagonist]

What do you think saving everyone entails, Shirou?

[resortghosts]

Exactly what it sounds like. I don't want to see anyone around me die or suffer.

I know it sounds stupid. Obviously I can't save everyone by myself. But after the camp I thought maybe with enough people working together anything would be possible.

[purrtagonist]

Nobody wants to see people around them die or suffer.

But. . . we may need to reevaluate what needs to be done to save the people here. Maybe it's less about what happens in the middle, and more about what happens at the very end.