Akira "chaotic extra" Kurusu [Jᴏᴋᴇʀ] (![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
purrtagonist) wrote2018-03-12 09:27 pm
purrtagonist) wrote2018-03-12 09:27 pm
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[Week 1, Monday: TOP TEN ANIME BETRAYALS]
[I don't know where Conductor Maya hangs out when she isn't in Ikea but Akira is lookin' for her]
You're one heck of a Conductor, you know that?
You're one heck of a Conductor, you know that?
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I want everyone to make it.
[LOFTY GOALS. . .! he knows it's naive. he knows that's not how the Reaper's Game works]
But I'll survive, as best as I can. Not for my sake-- [because his own wellbeing is so far down on the list of priorities] -- but for the sake of the people counting on me.
[. . .]
Maya-- do you trust the Composer?
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[ hey, she isn't going to knock on him for being naive. even if it can't happen, want the same thing, just as she said to him before. ]
Include me in that, won't you? I know you're busy worrying about everyone else, so I'll worry extra for you.
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They did save me, sooooo, I guess, I mostly do? It's hard to think of them as a bad guy, even with the whole.... y'know.
[ moidah. ]
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. . . thank you, Maya.
[it feels great to have someone like her in their corner. truthfully]
And I understand. I guess that makes sense. I'm just trying to figure out. . . [shrugs, a little helplessly] Why they would design a game like this one.
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[ she sounds fond when she says it so maybe it doesn't count as an insult. nah, it's an insult. ]
I dunno. I think.... maybe they're trying to prove something.
[ it's been really hard for her to get a straight answer out of the composer, though. ]
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The inherent goodness of humanity? That you should trust people when you can, no matter what?
[or, the opposite end of the spectrum]
That someone will always be there to stab you in the back? That life is tough, and to win, you need to be willing to get your hands dirty?
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..... Maybe something in between. I feel like you gotta be awfully jaded and morally grey to try to pull off a Game, let alone one this messed up.
[ she pauses to really think, because it's hard for her to put herself in this frame of mind, being a shounen weenie. ] I guess, it's like.... when your life is on the line, the person you really are comes out? Bla bla bla, shady experiments. Or..... maybe it's beyond us insignificant Players n' Reapers and we're all just chess pieces on a checkers board.
[ maya learn the difference between checkers and chess ]
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. . . yeah.
[honestly? he was thinking of it in those terms, too. it's only in the most dire of circumstances, where the fight is literally for life or death, that someone's true nature is released]
[but the park about chess pieces on a checkers board gets him to let out a soft snort]
I've been a pawn in a god's game once before. I never really wanted to do it again, if I'm going to be honest.
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[ she looks sympathetic. even if he's laughing at her, wow rude. ]
I'd say your luck is about as bad as mine, with the false accusations and all. But.... As long as you keep going like this, I don't think anyone can truly use you again.
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Am I not being used right now, Maya?
[a soft question, with small wisps of vulnerability to it. not something he lets just anyone see, either]
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[ maybe they're not just rank two. her voice softens too, this is more direct than she'd usually be. ] I can't completely say no. But, I don't know --- the fact that you're questioning all of this, that you're not just following orders.... it means you won't let your narrative be dictated by anyone. Doncha think?
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[that is exactly what he needed to hear, in this very moment, and some life returns to his demeanor]
Well, I've never been the type to take anything lying down.
[heh]
Someone back home tried to write my entire future for me. Once we defeated him, I decided right then and there that no one else would determine my life's trajectory-- except for me.
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So, then --- if you keep going like this, I'm sure you'll be fine.
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It isn't like I'm going to stop just because things get a little rough.
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.... I mean, I'd still be in your corner then, but I'd be yelling at you not to get yourself Erased, and then going back to cheering once the danger is passed!
[ is this reassuring at all, probably not. ]
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Hm. Don't worry. If I do get Erased, it won't be because I'm trying.
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Good! Then, you do you!
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That's the one thing you can always count on me to do.
[just being himself]
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I wouldn't expect anything else from the head honcho of the Phantom Thieves!
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Remind me to tell you that story one day. Ah. . . if you don't me already know the entire thing.
[it isn't any fun when he can't share his backstory :(]
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Well, you should still tell me! I like hearing your voice.
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[also: what]
Thanks? I've never been told that before.
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I guess you're not used to being the one charmed, huh!
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[he says that with good humor, though]
But if you're actually interested. . .
[glances at her, as though gauging whether she was serious about this or not]
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[ she nods, though! she's sincere. ]
I sure am! Besides, reading about it is a lot different from hearing it from the person who's actually experienced it, yanno?
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