THAT'S WHAT I WANTED TO SAY AND I THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO KILL YOU AND SET OFF THE BOMB AND THEN YOU'D BOTH DIE AND THE BARGHEST WOULD TAKE SOMEONE ELSE
[ He can find Yoshi! His shoulders are curled up close and shaking. It actually feels like his arm and head are moving; dragging the arm across his face before he replies: ]
maybe... that's the only thing that went through so far
Week 3, Saturday, post trial
MAKOTO IS THE BARGHEST
THAT'S WHAT I WANTED TO SAY AND I THOUGHT SHE WAS GOING TO KILL YOU AND SET OFF THE BOMB AND THEN YOU'D BOTH DIE AND THE BARGHEST WOULD TAKE SOMEONE ELSE
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[oh my god]
That's what you wanted to tell me yesterday??
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but you kept thinking it was just the bomb and i couldn't tell you who it was
and you didn't watch everyone
i was scared you were going to die
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I was blinded by my trust in Makoto.
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[ That's all he writes. But the bed does move a bit as someone invisible sits on the side.
It's been a very tiring few days for garbage bunnies. ]
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Thanks for looking out for me. For covering my blind spots.
I'm not perfect.
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because i'm dead
we can't do anything to save you
you can't die so easily
[ There's a soft patter, tears hitting... some surface, likely glass. ]
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Hey, come on. You can do a lot more than you think you can.
All of you on the other side keep talking about how useless you are, but you're not.
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i don't want more people to keep dying but
i can't do anything to stop it
all i can do is watch
it hurts a lot
[ The indent shifts, like he's brought his feet up onto the bed too. Curled up. ]
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Can you find out more information about the Outsider? About this resort? Something. . . to make it past the censors?
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maybe... that's the only thing that went through so far
i guess because it's not part of the "game"
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That's how you can help us. You said it yourself, right? It doesn't matter who wins. It matters who survives.
There's so much more going on here than what meets the eye. We can't discover all of those mysteries ourselves.
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There's also something of a pause before he slowly types out a reply. ]
i don't want to watch the barghest kill my friends
i want you to survive
[ It takes a while, finding the words. ]
it wasn't like this before
i used to be happy as long as i could do anything for anyone
but now there's people i get scared for, worried for, sad for...
it hurts so much
and i can't make it stop
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[CONFIDENT WORDS COMING FROM SOMEONE WHO DOESN'T KNOW HOW TO KILL THE BARGHEST. . . but like hell he'd admit defeat that easily]
It hurts because you care. And that kind of hurt is natural and normal, a part of any relationship-- friendship or otherwise.
It sucks. But it's not a bad thing. What you need to do is take that hurt and turn it into something productive.
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i don't know much about the other two
but the barghest likes making people suffer
like me and iwai
[ His shoulders scrunch up a bit before he continues typing. ]
how?
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[he's going somewhere with this]
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